Makes me imagine that i want to be dead.
The constant need to vomit is some thing to be said.
I really don't want to be force fed.
People I love watching me eat,
telling me that I'm beat into defeat
And now my soul has been really beat
just so i can make my life all neat.
So what if i don't end up eating enough?
I just don't want to keep eating all this stuff.
On my body, mind and soul its too rough.
There is none of this I really love.
Stop stop stop looking at me!
Cant you see I want to be free?
I don't want to eat by the three.
I still love you, cant you see?
I want to be pretty for him.
Even if it means to be stick thin.
Trash all things packed into a tin
And try to stop the next of kin.
No more period, no more shake,
no more fat to forsake.
Make our hearts all opaque
and bid all our souls to take.
You think its dumb, I'm numb to you.
You find it stupid, screw you too!
I don't point out your faults and habits,
just the fact that you make me rabid.
Its true i don't know what to do
and i do need help pulling through
but if you say I'm wrong and point your finger,
I'll bite it off and let you suffer.
I don't need your pity
about how my life is shitty
and i know you're witty
kind of like a blind kitty.
I'm sorry, i really am
but my get together is such a sham
and i need as much help as I can
because there is more than I can stand.
But I can't ask... What if you said no?
What if you just came and turned ice cold?
What if I face you and a nonstop scold?
What if my act, for you, is too old?
Make it stop, started in 2001
where so many friends ended in shun
and here I remember, no one won
and people calling me dumb bitch and cunt.
I said help me then and drugs came,
nothing changed then and I'm still the same.
I don't starve because I feel no hunger.
Sit down, put my soul on a hanger.
Take my throat and be the next wrangler.
Easier than being a nutrition strangler.
Again I'm sorry, forgive me, I'm broken at the seams.
Don't know what to do, cant seem to pick a team
and watch me hurt in the midst of this ana stream
hoping this is all a hardcore dream.
